Choir concert this evening, and he said he would be going too. I really hope I’ll be able to meet him there, but my gut feeling tells me I won’t. The place is so big, and there will be so many people arriving at different times, meaning that my possibility of seeing him is really tiny. *sigh* In any case I don’t want to get my hopes high, after all what’s more important is the concert, seeing him would be something extra. Hope that the concert will be a great one.

For those of you who have been following my entries about a certain “him” (no I’m not refering to Joshua here), yes he was at the centre today. *sigh* At this point of time there’s so many more important things to be done than crushing over guys, but I just can’t help it. I realised that he looks very slightly like Yong Leng today. Hmm.

If either Shi Leng or Gian every says anything about me liking Wai Wan or him being my darling again I’m going to bite their heads off. I mean it! I seriously don’t like him, but despite the irritated looks I give them or the “shut up!” I tell them from time to time when they keep mentioning that, they either are bad at inferring or they’re just… thick when it comes to these things. Some teasing is fine with me, but there comes a point where it becomes excessive, overboard and really irritating. Arrgh.

I was making a new layout for my tabulas the other day when I came across some of my secondary school class photos that I had saved in my computer. At that moment I just missed my secondary school days so badly… Oh the days when we were so much more carefree…

We were supposed to have 2h of GP lessons today, but she didn’t come into class. Apparently it had something to do with the police. During lunch I saw some policemen walking down the canteen stairs, and later on some people was saying that she was with them. I wonder what happened that was so serious they had to call the police in. Soneone said that there was a stolen bag, but the case seems to be more serious than that. Maybe one day we’ll find out… that is if the school wants to let us know.

Not that anyone in class minded not having her around, despite not being spared from work to do. With her around we’re like angels, but today you could just feel the difference in the atmosphere in class. Now if only she misses lessons more often… but fat hope on that.

难以忘记初次见你 一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里 你的身影 挥散不去
握你的双手感觉你的温柔
真的有点透不过气 你的天真 我想珍惜
看到你受委屈 我会伤心

只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己 爱上你是我情非得已
爱上你是我情非得已

什么原因 我竟然又会遇见你
我真的真的不愿意 就这样陷入爱的陷阱

只怕我自己会爱上你 不敢让自己靠的太近
怕我没什么能够给你 爱你也需要很大的勇气
只怕我自己会爱上你 也许有天会情不自禁
想念只让自己苦了自己 爱上你是我情非得已

我在上个星期三第一次遇见了他。他，只是我每星期只见一次的男生，我也不怎么认识他。我到现在为止才见过他两次，但那两次的见面与交谈却令我对他留下了深刻的印象。和他交谈时，我感到非常舒服，非常自在。那种感觉，除了在和认识久了的同学交谈时以外，我已经很久没感觉到了。很少人能够在我们初次见面时给我这种感觉，而他就是这少数人中的其中一个。

好喜欢他微笑时的表情；是多么的可爱。有时我会不知不觉地想起他。是不是我渐渐地对他有好感，喜欢上了他呢？其实我真的希望我不会喜欢上他。我毕竟并不是很了解他；可能认识久了，在我更加了解他的为人后，我对他的印象会有极大的改变。相信过了一段时间我们也不会再见面了。但对别人产生好感，不是我能控制的。

不知道自己该怎么办才好。。。

I don’t know why I actually typed that in chinese, but I just felt like it. My chinese is getting worse I think… it took me quite long to actually type all that and it wasn’t easy.