It’s the start of the holidays, and we had the first lecture of the week this afternoon. I still think that having a lecture at 1.30pm is a really weird timing. Well at least the timing’s not as weird as practical this thursday, which is from 11am-2pm. My poor stomach. It’s a good thing that the lecture ended earlier, because I wasn’t really in the mood for lectures. Not when Mrs Khoo is lecturing anyway… she jumps all over the place and half the time people end up trying to find out where she’s at.

Went to Orchard with Qin Ning and An Qi after that, and while we were there we met Alwyn, Johan and Jelvin. It’s always the same few people going out… even for the movie next tuesday it’s the few people you usually see. We were supposed to look for Ying Jia’s and Alwyn’s presents, but didn’t really know what to get them so we walked around aimlessly. The shops at the Annex have changed so much… felt a little lost there since there’s a lot of new shops and I haven’t been there in quite some time. Eventually we got something for both of them, but only after we headed to cineleisure to grab some food.

We ended up sitting there and talking for a while. Seems that when we go out we usually end up sitting somewhere and talking… not that it’s a bad thing though. Somehow our conversation turned towards the topic of guys… crushes, going out and all that. It’s really nice having people that can relate to how you feel when crushing on someone, because different people treat such issues differently. I think I’m the kind that goes ga-ga when I see my crush.

And since we’re on that topic, this song just reminds me of him. Will he just end up being a beautiful disaster? I hope not, but what happens in the future is not under my control. I’ll just follow where He from above leads me.

Kelly Clarkson – Beautiful Disaster

He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world could cave in
It just ain’t right
It just ain’t right

Oh when I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

His magical myth
As strong as with I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him?
So hard not to blame him
Hold on tight
Hold on tight

Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

I’m longing for love and the logical
But he’s only happy hysterical
I’m waiting for some kind of miracle
Waitin’ so long
So long

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still leaves more than I can take
Oh cuz I don’t know
I don’t know what he’s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful
Or just a beautiful disaster?

He’s beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster

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[edit] The problem should be fixed now, please let me know if it still doesn’t work.

He just called. He said he was in the vicinity playing LAN with his classmates and asked me out for dinner… so I’m supposed to meet him tonight. Actually I wonder if I should have agreed to go… After getting used to seeing him every week it may end up being hard when we don’t get to meet for a long time. It’s just this cycle of meeting him, coming home after that have having him popping into my mind once in a while over the next few days, busying myself with other stuff and forgetting after that, and by the time I’ve “forgotten” he calls again and this whole cycle repeats… sigh. Guys can be so… troublesome. But in a good way sometimes?

Oh I just remembered today’s “eat with your family day”. So much for setting it today when people want to go out on the last day of school, have camps and all that.

And Fantasia won.

I was rooting for Diana, though I had this strong feeling that Fantasia would win. Based on the comments given throughout the show, it seemed that a larger proportion of people (those interviewed at least) had voted for Fantasia. I have to admit both girls are really talented, but I would prefer Diana any time, any day. I just don’t like Fantasia’s tone, and all the “yeah yeah yeah yeah”s she does whenever she sings. I wonder why so many people seem to like her… is it also partly due to the judges’ comments? I think the judges prefer Fantasia… whenever she makes mistakes during her songs they do criticise her, but it the end they always end off by saying how she’s still such a fabulous singer. Not the case for Diana though. Somehow this reminds me of Ruben and Clay last year.

Oh well. Season 3 was good, but not as special as season 2, because there’s no spark this season. Clay’s still the best!