We were having a discussion on “The Purpose Driven Life” on Sunday. It’s just so coincidental that when I wanted to get the book our sunday school teachers decided that they would be using the book for sunday school discussions. Not that it isn’t a good thing anyway. :)

We touched on the first 2 days, “It all starts with God” and “You are not an accident”. Ever so often I think about what I want, my goals, dreams and the like. We try to give our life some purpose, but we simply forget that the purpose of our lives is decided not by ourselves but by God, our creator. Only the Maker knows what’s the exact purpose and function of His creation. Perhaps that’s why sometimes we don’t feel content of fulfilled even when we have achieved all the goals we’ve set for ourselves, because the purpose of our lives does not only lie in the goals we hope to achieve. Even so, when we have some idea of what God’s purpose for us is, sometimes it’s just so hard to obey Him because what He wants for us may not be what we want for ourselves. I guess we just have to slowly learn to obey Him, constantly reminding ourselves that we’re living for Him and not ourselves.

Another learning point was that everything in our lives has already been planned by our Creator. Everything about us, our family background, race, our experiences… they have all been planned by Him for His purpose even before we were born. I know that there are times when I’ve complained about things and wished that I could change some of these, expecially when it comes to some of my experiences. But knowing that it’s all part of His plan really does make me feel better. So often we may think that another alternative is better, but if we took that other route, can we really guarantee that we will be more happy than we are now, and that that alternative is better for us? It’s about learning to trust that God wants to give us the best. We may not see it that way, but as time passes and we can put parts of our lives into better perspective, we’ll understand a little more of His works in our lives.

“It is in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ,… He had His eyes on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose He is working out in everything and everyone.” - Ephesians 1:11

Went with boy to the library to study today. With the prelims coming, we kind of have no choice but to meet to study because time is just so precious, yet we only get to meet once a week. At least things will get better after the As. :)

Somehow quite a lot of Ex-Fairsians came towards the evening, all from my batch too. Met Bee Lian, who was quite surprised to see me with him. Jasmine was there too, with a few others. Malcolm and gang came later, and I saw Derrick there when I was about to leave. The past few times I was there I didn’t really see many people I know, and suddenly… whoa.

Chemistry practical’s on Monday, before the prelims continue after the week of holidays. I guess we all know that it’s not a holiday but a time for intensive mugging instead…

Mr Bek was in an unusually bad mood today. The students had a feedback session with the councillors today while the teachers were having a meeting during civics. Knowing that attendence will not be marked, some people skipped the session and returned to class to do some work. Unfortunately, the feedback session ended late, and Mr Bek caught those who skipped it in class and gave the detention all the way till 9pm.

We had Math after that, and we were supposed to do a past year paper. Only about half the class did it, and he sent the other half of the class out after asking our reasons for not doing the paper. So half of us were out there, feeling hot and chatting while doing our work. In the past he never did that even when people didn’t complete their work, and I don’t know why he was so pissed with us today. Told us something about Math being important too even though we have Bio practical this wednesday.

But we just had a Math mock exam on saturday, and some people studied really hard for it. I know I spent the past few weeks on Math revision while barely touching any of my other subjects. And I’m not about to do another paper after spending so much time on the subject and having just completed a mock exam. Every teacher gives the same excuse that we shouldn’t be neglecting their subject even though we have an exam coming up, but it’s not as though we only take their subject. We only have 24 hours a day you know. And if we don’t do well for our prelims the teachers will probably be complaining that we didn’t put in effort in studying or spent too much focus on other subjects. Sheesh. -.-

Stressed. ><

… was just so sweet. :)

1. The Olympics is so addictive. I just have to catch swimming, gymnastics and track events whenever possible. When the track events start there will be more to watch, but most of these stuff are shown after midnight and the prelims are approaching. :( Whenever they have major sporting events like the World Cup, Olympics or even the SEA Games I’m having some major exam. -.-

2. We had soccer for PE today. Usually Mr Menon lets us choose what games we want to play, but surprisingly he was so insistent that we played soccer today and that everyone was involved in the game. Quite a few of us were not really interested in the game, but we still played in the end. Got hit by the ball twice, almost got tripped once and my arm was pulled. All on my right side too. Maybe that’s to balance all those bruises I got on my left last week? -.-

3. Found out our shifts for our prelim practicals. I’m in shift 3 for Chem, which I really don’t like. I would much prefer being in the first shift for chem, for the other subjects I don’t care that much. It’s just something about getting inaccurate results if I didn’t wash my apparatus clean enough and the person from the previous shift didn’t do so earlier. Plus if you’re in the first shift you don’t have to really wash all the apparatus that thoroughly… (Yes I’m just lazy like that. -.-)

4. Must relearn all my organic chem. We were doing a worksheet on the topic today and I can’t recall anything. I think more than half of us haven’t touched that stack of notes in a really long time.

5. Charla and Mirna are out of The Amazing Race. I think Anju will be sad because she likes them, especially Charla. I really admire Charla for going so far in the race, being so strong and smart in some ways. But Mirna’s really not my kind of person. I don’t get why she keeps harping about how she wants to prove that their team is strong even though Charla is shorter than others. Charla doesn’t even keep saying that even though she’s done so much. Another week till the next episode…

6. Prelims start next week, and that means less entries here for the moment while I mug away. 2 weeks of exams, another week of “holidays” followed by another 2 weeks of horror. -.-