It’s sunday tomorrow! Where did the whole of my recess week go to? I was hoping to be able to rest more during the recess week, but unfortunately there were so many assignments to do, so most of my time was (very sadly) spent on that. But I’d much rather complete them during the break than to rush out all those essays the night before they’re due. I’m just glad that I’ve more or less completed everything with the exception of my biostats assignment, which I don’t feel like completing right now. Suddenly I feel so free! Heh.

It’s a pity I didn’t get to meet up with the others during the break, but I guess we’re all busy with different things. But we’ll meet up after the exams! :)

I feel like going on a trip. Somewhere. Anywhere.

This week is recess week, and by right I should be relaxing at home, doing the things I like. But I’m flooded with assignments! I just finished doing my microbiology lab report after staring at it for 2 days, and there’s still the biostats assignment to do. Recess week doesn’t feel like recess week at all.

Every person has different abilities, and there’s only so much one can handle or do. Think of a 250ml beaker. 250ml of liquid is all it can hold, and if you try to fill it with more liquid, it’s just going to overflow. I’m trying to do whatever I can, but why am I made to feel as though I’m no good just because I cannot do as much as someone else can? I just want to be able to do things my way and at my own pace. When people expect me to do things like the way they do it, or expect me to be able to do as much as they can, it just gives me a lot of additional stress. And then I get frustrated because I cannot do everything. And then I start getting headaches. Like now.

I just feel very tired right now.

I’m seriously pissed right now, because of people who anyhow delete my stuff without even asking me beforhand. It’s extremely rude to do so, especially when the external hard disk doesn’t belong to you, and all you do is to store crappy shows on it. So what makes your files more important than mine?! I get so pissed when time and time again my files get deleted and I only find out when I want to retrieve them.

I’m so angry that I just want to wipe out everything in the drive, but I’m trying so hard to tell myself that I shouldn’t be doing the same thing. What a good way to spoil my morning! Arrgh.

I really need to save up to buy myself an external hard drive, so people will keep their fingers off my stuff.

Just watched the final episode of Honey and Clover. This episode made me feel kind of sad towards the end, and this is when I can only understand about 5% of the words because there’s no subtitles. I’m going to feel even sadder when I get to watch the subtitled version, and can understand exactly what is being said. :(

Anyway, the final episode… In season 1, Takemoto once confessed to Hagu how he felt about her, but unfortunately, his feelings were one-sided. Even though Hagu did not like him romantically, they were still friends, and Takemoto was still a very important person to Hagu. In this episode, Hagu wished Takemoto happiness and made a rather tall sandwich for Takemoto before he left, with each layer spread with honey and having a four-leaf clover in the middle. Seeing what Hagu had done for him must have meant a lot to Takemoto. I get the impression that he never exactly realised what an important person he was to Hagu before this.

There are certain people in life that we don’t and won’t like romantically, but this does not change the fact that some of them are very important people to us. We are so glad to have them around, and can’t imagine how our lives would be like if we have never known them. Relationships don’t always work out between 2 people, but that doesn’t mean that it’s the end of the friendship between them as well. There’s always this akward period of time when both parties don’t know how they should behave around each other, but the friendship between both parties shouldn’t be permanently affected because of something like this. Even though we may not feel for them romantically, it doesn’t mean that we don’t care for them, or that they don’t mean anything to us. There are some people in our lives that are just meant to be people that are special and important to us.

Meetings and partings are both part and parcel of life, but partings always make me feel sad. I don’t like partings, and I wish that partings would never come, but of course things like can never be avoided. Seeing the characters graduate and take their own paths in life just reminds me of graduating from secondary school and JC. And how even though there’s still 2.5 more years of university to go through, it isn’t a very long time, and soon, the time to part will come.

Partings don’t signify the end of friendships, but when you graduate, even though you can meet up with your friends, catch up with each other and enjoy yourselves, certain experiences will can never be re-created, nor can they happen again. These are the things that are left as sweet memories that are treasured. More than often, we take certain things for granted, and only realise that we should have treasured these things more after they’re no longer there. Continue to treasure the friends you have made even after you all have graduated and are headed towards different goals in life, but let’s also learn to treasure each and every moment of your school life, and the time you share with your friends. :)

時が過ぎて　何もかもが思い出になる日はきっとくる…　でも　ボクがいて　君がいて　みんながいて　たったひとつのものを探した　あの奇跡のような日々は　いつまでも甘い痛みとともに　胸の中の遠い場所でずっと　なつかしくまわりつづけるんだ…

Although time will pass and the day when everything will become a mere memory will come, I was there, you were there, everyone was there, looking for only one thing under those miraculous days. No matter when, it feels sweet and painful at the same time. It will remain in that distant place in my heart. Always feels nostalgic, always turning.

If only more bacteria were pink, and don’t stink like some bacteria do.

Jasmine and Wan’e
They look so alike from the back! The hair, the backpack, jacket, carpris that are tied at the sides, slippers… And they don’t know that Sherry and I have this photo of them. ;)

Serene and I!