I’m so relieved and glad that the presentation has ended! The amount of effort we put in really did pay off, and I think we all did quite well for the actual presentation. Thank God! Now I can finally sleep in a bit more on tuesdays and fridays again.

I can’t remember exactly what happened when I was standing up there, in front of the scrutinising eyes of Bea, the video camera and the rest of the class. But I just knew I had to talk and so I did. I wonder if she’ll look through all our videos again… If she does, hopefully she won’t notice all the small errors or pick on the imperfections! We won’t know how we’ve done until we get back our results in 2 weeks time, but I think what matters right now is that I’m happy with how the presentation went, even though I still dislike having to present something and be graded for it.

It’s the first weekend that I’ve felt so relaxed and free in a while. Tired, but at least I can sleep in peace!

Now that Kanon is over, there’s nothing for me to watch on Saturdays! HanaKimi is over too, so maybe it’s time to find another show to watch. Recommendations, anyone?

Something from one of the episodes:

Sayuri: It’s Kanon. Pachelbel’s Kanon.
Yuuichi: Kanon?
Sayuri: It repeats the same melody and crescendos gradually, peacefully, and beautifully. It would be nice if life changed like that; slowly but surely, while being seemingly unchanged from day to day.

I really like that quote. Yes it’d be really nice if life was like that. It’s nice to have excitements and surprises in life, but given the choice of a life filled with surprises or one that’s peaceful and changes gradually, I’d certainly choose the latter. Not that excitements and surprises isn’t good once in a while.

And another one:

“Time is irrelevant to memory. How important that moment was to a person.. I think that’s all that matters.” - Shiori

On friday night I was feeling pretty stressed. Partly because of the amount of school work that has been piling up, and partly because I had to teach sunday school today. Having been teaching for slightly more than a year, I don’t feel as nervous having to explain things to the students as before, but there are times when I look at the topic to be taught for the week and I panic because I have no idea how am I going to bring the message across to the students. Especially when they’re only 12/13, so there are things that you have to simplify a little so that they can understand. Today’s lesson was one of those. The lesson was supposed to be taken from Romans 9, and frankly speaking, Romans is one book which I find difficult to fully understand and explain. It took me a few rounds of reading before I understood the gist of the passage and the aim of the lesson, and even after that, I really had no idea where to start from and how to explain things to the students. But praise God, the lesson went ok even though it wasn’t as smooth as I had hoped.

There are times when I feel a bit down after taking a sunday school lesson because the students don’t appear as though they fully understand what I was trying to explain. Whether they actually did or not, I really am not too sure. But today I was reminded that I shouldn’t be dejected just because I don’t see any results. Perhaps it may take years, or tens of people to explain a certain passage or concept to them before they somewhat understand it. But if every one give up because they don’t see any results of what they’re doing, then what will happen? It’s all in God’s plan. :)

Whenever I face tough situations like these, I am reminded that my abilities and knowledge are so little. That I just can’t do so many things on my own. It is because of God working though me that I am still here today, doing the things that I do. Like that Mrs Tham once told us, Christian stands for “without CHRIST, I Am Nothing”. How true.

PS: Girls I’ll reply your emails soon!

That Sherry woman has been abusing my manju-san! Look at it's poor fate:

Must be pre-exam stress I tell you. Or maybe she’s a bit insane.

Speaking of stress… I think I’ve been subconsciously feeling stressed for the past few days. Haven’t been sleeping well, and I end up having nightmares every night. I can’t remember most of them, except for the one where someone I knew was leaving me and I wouldn’t be seeing that person ever again. I really hate dreams like these because they feel too real. Every time after I wake up for a nightmare, I don’t dare to try to sleep again immediately, because sometimes the nightmare ends up continuing. Perhaps I’ve been having all these dreams because I have a lot of things to do, and until I get them done, I just can’t feel totally relaxed.

I guess this is not a very good time to be asked to obtain a chart like this for practical and then annotate it:

I really hope that I can have an uninterrupted sleep tonight.