Haven’t been in the best of moods lately, and I guess part of the reason is because I haven’t been sleeping well. I try to sleep early or once I feel tired, but it seems that by the time I’m lying on my bad I just don’t feel sleepy anymore. So after who knows how long of tossing and turning in bed, I end up falling asleep but having some (weird) dream. It’s not fun at all I tell you. I really don’t feel good when I don’t get a good sleep!

Pulled a muscle in my arm while I was bathing earlier today. I don’t know how it happened, but it just did. And suddenly, spraining your neck while taking a shower doesn’t sound like something really out of this world anymore. It’s not impossible!

It’s been raining since late morning, and I really wish that the weather isn’t so dreary today. The funny feeling from last night is resurfacing again. Not a good sort of funny feeling. It’s more like anxiety mixed with stress, fear, pain and wanting to run away. To be somewhere where I can feel more at ease. This nagging feeling is really bothering me. I should really find something to do so that I don’t think so much about it.

Go away funny feeling.

Went to the Science Centre today, since (1) there’s nothing to do anyway and (2) places like the zoo and birdpark are pretty expensive to go to. The last time I remember going to the science centre was in primary school. Back then we would buy those blue Young Scientist cards and try to earn badges. Does anyone still remember doing those? I still have my badges kept away somewhere.

Since I haven’t been there in so long, the exhibits were like new to me. Whether those exhibits are really new or it’s just that I don’t recall them being there, that I really have no idea. I wish they would fix those spoilt ones though or at least put up a sign to tell people which ones are currently not working. It’s better than letting people press the buttons and wonder if nothing is actually happening (i.e. it’s spoilt) or whether they missed seeing what they were intended to see.

Visiting the electricity section ones again just goes to prove how much I really don’t like that stuff. I think I’ve gotten shocked by enough electrical appliances and during those physics experiments, which makes me wary of touching stuff that looks like it could give me a shock.

Where can I go next?

Been having pretty weird dreams for the past 2 nights.

The night before I dreamt about having a pedicure, and I don’t remember if I dreamt of anything else. All I remember is having someone cut my toenails. Do normal people actually dream of things like these?

Last night/this morning’s dream was a long one that didn’t seem to make much sense. I was doing my attachment in the lab, and there was a lot of people around. I don’t remember being in the actual lab in my dreams, but the place seemed more like an apartment in a block of flats. There were metal grills on the door, like what you see in most HDB flats here. I remember going to school, except that this school didn’t resemble any of the schools I’ve been to before. I was there with some friends, and it seemed as though we were just starting school or something. There was a CCA (co-curricular activity) fair, and we signed up for some of them.

The next thing I remember was that I was on my way home with a group of friends. Whether they are the same ones from earlier I can’t remember. But it wasn’t after visiting the fair; rather, it was after the exams. (What happened to all the time in between these 2 events?) We boarded the train, and I got off at my usual stop. It was dark by that time, and I was walking home from the train station. However, I couldn’t seem to find my way back and kept on walking in circles. I remember seeing a lot of cars parked at the roadside, and that there were many people sitting around in the coffee shops. Looking at some of these people gave me the creeps, and I was walking faster and faster. Suddenly, this guy in his late 20s appeared from behind some parked cars and started walking briskly towards me. Freaked out, I started running and he gave chase. Eventually he caught up, and we ended up sitting somewhere and had a chat. (Like what the heck?!) He told me some sad story about his family, and when he was done, he showed me the direction I needed to walk in to get home.

And then I woke up.

I’m surprised I actually remember most of the details of the second dream, but it still doesn’t make any sense to me. Why do I have all this sort of weird dreams?