It’s almost the end of recess week, and other than the projects, I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything much. The projects still need to be wrapped up, there are lab reports to do and tests to study for. I need another week off!

I feel tired these days. I can’t sleep well at night and end up having dreams and waking up. And then when morning comes around I find that I can’t get up. I think that might be the reason why I didn’t feel too well for the past 2 days as well. Quite a few people seem to be falling sick lately as well… I wonder if it’s due to being tired or some bug being passed around. Hopefully a good rest will make things better!

I’m really not ready to head back to school yet!

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I was helping out with the games for the youth camp in church for the past 2 days, since they needed some manpower. I was perfectly fine on the first day, but I didn’t feel too good yesterday. By the time I came home I was seriously unwell, and I couldn’t stop sneezing. (It really sucks that I have such a sensitive nose.) Went to bed after having my dinner and showering, and even though I felt really tired, it took me quite a while until I managed to fall asleep. I think I slept around 12 hours last night… I’m much better today, but not perfectly well yet. Guess I need another day to fully recover.

I’ve been worrying about something since yesterday morning, and I wonder if it has anything to do with me getting sick. When I say that I’m worried about someone or something… it’s seriously the case. I’m the type of person that gets worried easily, and when my friends are in a bad mood, I can’t help but worry for them. I can’t be really happy when I see that my friends are not.

I feel like sleeping again…

原来最疼痛的表情竟是没有情绪
原来最残忍的画面可以甜言蜜语
我不懂得如何更爱你
影子讽刺地 跟着我难分难离
原来最孤单的是我还是那么想你
原来最悲哀的是我不能面对自己
你 收的干净
我也会 不留一点痕迹
(林俊杰 - 原来)

I feel like I’ve been living in a dream for so long… a dream that I wish will never end. But it’s time to wake up. The dream should have ended long ago. No point in wishing for things you know you can’t have, right?

Been feeling lethargic since getting back from my holiday. I just want to stone and do nothing at all, but I guess some quiet moments will do me some good. Sometimes you just want to be alone and have some quiet time, and moments like these are something that should be treasured. It’s like a retreat of sorts, from the busy schedule that I have during the semester. I don’t think I’ll ever be so free again once I graduate and start work!

I’m usually quieter than normal when I’m tired, upset or just feeling under the weather, but just let me stay this way for a while and I’ll be fine eventually. Don’t make me talk if you can sense that I just want to stay quiet. There’s nothing wrong with keeping quiet even if you’re with someone else - you can just enjoy each other’s presence.

休息是为了走更长远的路。

君のために時々悲しくて、心が痛くて、泣きたい。
君はいつもこのまま生きている？
嬉しい？
疲らない？

私はこのまま生きていたくない。
嫌だ。

幸せは何？
私の未来は本当に幸せ？
全然分からない。
若しも未来は幸せではない・・・どうしょう？少し怖い。
思いたくない。

幸せが欲しい。
私はどんな時も笑いたい。

頑張ってね、私。
君も頑張って。